Feeling worthless....

[hlmauera]

What is life worth? Five days I go to work and come home. I make no difference at work in the long run. Someone else could do my job- maybe not as well, but they could do it. At home I accomplish nothing. My house gets dirty while I sit and watch tv or play on the computer- I haven't even accomplished anything in my knitting. Nothing I do will last beyond my life time and only my family will miss me when I'm gone and they'll likely be gone long before me. There will be no children to carry on my lineage or my interests.

So what makes life worth while? I am not terribly successful at living a "good" life. Nothing makes me happy, nothing is fulfilling. I have no fire and no drive. I find nothing inspiring that is within my means to achieve. So I guess I'm simply passing the time until it's over and doing the best I can. *sigh* I think they call this the "continuing" part of our journey.

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Feeling worthless....

[loopyzany.livejournal.com]

I struggle with the same things, and the best I've come up with is this: whether or not yourexistance has a grand purpose, you're here. Live in the most loving way you know how, and figure that the little gestures will, on ocassion, probably unbeknownst to you, have an important affect on someone. Existance is self-justifying, and love (in the sense of agape) is the greatest virtue. Just do what you can.