Goals...

Jan. 11th, 2017 08:14 am
hlmauera: (Default)
I did forget a few things so I'm adding them in below.  I wanted to have them all in once place so I didn't have to hunt to hard for them.

Mental Health and Well-being
  • Be up front and honest with my family instead of avoiding having hard conversations. (I started this already when I told my mom I didn't want to go to Hawaii if I was going to be under Dad's thumb and not an independent person.  She's trying to arrange a family vacation, which, knowing my family, probably won't happen because mom and I are the only planners.  However, I told her it was difficult for me to be pleasant and not "ruin" other people's vacations when I had no say in my own participation.  I am 42 years old but my dad insists upon treating me like I'm 16 when we get together as a family.)
  • Continue daily journalling for my personal use
  • Figure out Christmas presents early in the year so I can work on them slowly and not be cramming everything into the last 2-3 months making myself miserable.
  • Continue participating in the University Chorale
  • Read!  My goal is at least 100 books.  I don't really care if  they are just fun and fluffy. 
  • Reduce screen time at home.  Perhaps audio books will help with this.
  • Learn a couple of new skills.  I have two knitting skills in mine, Entrelac and Brioche knitting.  But I'd like at least one to be non-knitting related.
  • ADDED Attend at least two cultural events (preferably with Jana but not exclusively)

Physical Health and Well-being
  • Continue to take my water aerobics class
  • Lose weight.  I'd like to get below 200 lbs by the first of next year.  That's about 36 lbs.  Normally, I wouldn't obsess about this but my surgery revealed that I have a fatty liver and the ONLY way to treat that is to lose weight. I think this is a reasonable goal.  If I could do that, I'd only have 25 lbs to go to get to my personal goal weight (perhaps not the doctors).
  • In that vein, continue tracking food intake and activity on my Fitbit
  • Once the surgery side effects have stabilized, see a nutritionist to discuss a balanced diet with my severely limited options- I think this should happen no later than March.
  • Get back to hiking- 3-5 hikes this year would be lovely.  This is a little weather dependent and so the last goal I had of 9 was not particularly feasible.
  • Exercise 3-5 days a week.  Water aerobics will take care of this if I go faithfully but if not, I need to get out and walk to replace the missed days
Craft goals
  • Complete the Christmas knitting.  I finished Mom's socks over the weekend but I still need to get Candy's Star Wars scarf completed- it's about half done at this point.
  • Learn Entrelac and Brioche knitting (as per above)
  • Complete 3-5 shawls. I have at least seven shawls in my queue that I already have yarn for and lots of other yarn besides
  • ADDED Complete Fiori di Sole.  It can count as one of
  • Complete the Poet's pullover.  I have the yarn and it's supposed to be an easy sweater.
  • Sew one thing a month using already acquired fabric. I have a ton of fabric matched with patterns already.
  • ADDED Sew two bliauts (Linen and wool).  These can count as part of my one a month but I may have to buy linen for one.
  • ADDED Embellish the green tunic completely.  I have a good idea of what this should look like in my head, which makes it easier than any of the other embellishment. Work on embellishing other SCA gear.

Financial goals
  • Become a Stampin' Up demonstrator and meet the quarterly goals- preferably without buying all the product for myself. (I have signed up and opened my website but now I have to meet the goals)
  • Put $1000 in the savings account.
  • Use my credit card only for my business expenses
  • Pay down the balance on the card using my tax return.
  • Try making home cleaning/personal products.  I have recipes for laundry detergent, shampoo, conditioner, and multipurpose cleaners.  It's possible some would be cheaper to make than buy and better for me or the environment.  I should also make some wool dryer balls- I suppose this is both a craft and a financial goal
  • I need to start thinking and planning for buying a new car

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I'm still fumbling around on this platform.  I had an entire post written on Friday and then lost it trying to figure out cross posting.

We endured another snow and ice storm over the weekend and got an extended weekend because of it.  Now, my driveway seems to be the only place dangerous to me.  All the roads are clear.

I decided to set a few goals for myself this year.  I seem to do a lot better when I do so.  I haven't yet taken the time to flesh this out completely, although I've thought about it a great deal.  It may be complete when I'm done with this post or it may change some yet.

Mental Health and Well-being
  • Be up front and honest with my family instead of avoiding having hard conversations. (I started this already when I told my mom I didn't want to go to Hawaii if I was going to be under Dad's thumb and not an independent person.  She's trying to arrange a family vacation, which, knowing my family, probably won't happen because mom and I are the only planners.  However, I told her it was difficult for me to be pleasant and not "ruin" other people's vacations when I had no say in my own participation.  I am 42 years old but my dad insists upon treating me like I'm 16 when we get together as a family.)
  • Continue daily journalling for my personal use
  • Figure out Christmas presents early in the year so I can work on them slowly and not be cramming everything into the last 2-3 months making myself miserable.
  • Continue participating in the University Chorale
  • Read!  My goal is at least 100 books.  I don't really care if  they are just fun and fluffy. 
  • Reduce screen time at home.  Perhaps audio books will help with this.
  • Learn a couple of new skills.  I have two knitting skills in mine, Entrelac and Brioche knitting.  But I'd like at least one to be non-knitting related.

Physical Health and Well-being
  • Continue to take my water aerobics class
  • Lose weight.  I'd like to get below 200 lbs by the first of next year.  That's about 36 lbs.  Normally, I wouldn't obsess about this but my surgery revealed that I have a fatty liver and the ONLY way to treat that is to lose weight. I think this is a reasonable goal.  If I could do that, I'd only have 25 lbs to go to get to my personal goal weight (perhaps not the doctors).
  • In that vein, continue tracking food intake and activity on my Fitbit
  • Once the surgery side effects have stabilized, see a nutritionist to discuss a balanced diet with my severely limited options- I think this should happen no later than March.
  • Get back to hiking- 3-5 hikes this year would be lovely.  This is a little weather dependent and so the last goal I had of 9 was not particularly feasible.
  • Exercise 3-5 days a week.  Water aerobics will take care of this if I go faithfully but if not, I need to get out and walk to replace the missed days
Craft goals
  • Complete the Christmas knitting.  I finished Mom's socks over the weekend but I still need to get Candy's Star Wars scarf completed- it's about half done at this point.
  • Learn Entrelac and Brioche knitting (as per above)
  • Complete 3-5 shawls. I have at least seven shawls in my queue that I already have yarn for and lots of other yarn besides
  • Complete the Poet's pullover.  I have the yarn and it's supposed to be an easy sweater.
  • Sew one thing a month using already acquired fabric. I have a ton of fabric matched with patterns already.

Financial goals
  • Become a Stampin' Up demonstrator and meet the quarterly goals- preferably without buying all the product for myself. (I have signed up and opened my website but now I have to meet the goals)
  • Put $1000 in the savings account.
  • Use my credit card only for my business expenses
  • Pay down the balance on the card using my tax return.
  • Try making home cleaning/personal products.  I have recipes for laundry detergent, shampoo, conditioner, and multipurpose cleaners.  It's possible some would be cheaper to make than buy and better for me or the environment.  I should also make some wool dryer balls- I suppose this is both a craft and a financial goal
  • I need to start thinking and planning for buying a new car
I think I may have missed some things I was thinking of before.  If so, I'll add them
hlmauera: (Panther)

I believe it is possible, and that it’s time, for me to take my life back!  I’ve been drifting, allowing circumstances and others to dictate my direction in life.  I’ve been dissatisfied and angry, depressed and mean.  I need to take control of my life and find the things that make it worth living. Life isn’t about my job and my worth isn’t defined by how others perceive me but rather life is about the things inside me: love, joy, growth, and many other wonderful things that can get lost in the everyday drudgery.

It’s a new year and the world starts to think about resolutions to make but we often simply let our resolutions slide into oblivion because we don’t know how to achieve them or are overwhelmed by them.  Recently Finna posted about how she makes resolutions with goals with specific tangible plans and schedules so that she can make herself accountable for her results.   I don’t remember the last time I consciously decided to set goals for myself.  Being a perfectionist, I’m always afraid of failure and recognize that I’d rather not attempt something than to fail.  But not trying is failing on an installment plan and it doesn’t make me any happier than facing failure head on.  I believe happiness has been missing in my life because I’m focusing on failures and shortcomings instead of challenging myself to grow and seeing the amazing things I am capable of.  It's time for me to choose each day where I'm going and how I'm going to get there.

So my resolution is to create a life that brings me joy.  This is somewhat intangible and multifaceted so I’ve broken it down into categories with smaller goals.

Mental health:


  • Do something for myself every day!  It only needs to take 15 minutes but it should be something that is just for my enjoyment or enrichment.

  • Make plans to do something fun like going to the zoo, aquarium, or museum, or going for a special visit (and follow through) at least once every 3 months.

  • Connect with people- have lunch, talk on the phone, or get together with people at least once a week.

  • Take a lunch break and leave my office every working day with minimal exceptions.

  • When faced with challenges, ask myself “Where is the opportunity in this experience? How can I use this experience to further my growth as a person?”  Re-evaluate the challenges!  Are they really challenges or opportunities in disguise?  Yes, this situation might be annoying but how can I look at it in a way that would make it seem to be less so?

  • Set sewing and knitting goals for the year- make them be a bit of a stretch but still possible.

  • Learn at least 5 new skills, be deliberate in the choices not opportunistic

    • Electrical repairs

    • Tunisian Crochet

    • First Aid/First responder

    • Create authentic  15th century Persian garb

    • TBD


  • Read 100 books this year, make 25 of them non-fiction.

  • Be prepared to move forward with new employment opportunities.  I won’t let complacency keep me in a place I don’t want to be.  I think I know what kind of opportunity I’d like to find but I will keep an open mind and open eyes.  This means looking at the employment opportunities on campus at least once a week and updating my resume for the kind of work I’m looking for, recognizing that I will need to tweak it for each opportunity.  Until such time as I find the right opportunity, I will look for personal growth possibilities where I currently am and make a dedicated effort to be the very best employee I can be for the job I am in now.

  • Be aware of and redirect the tape in my head that tells me what a horrible person I am, how worthless, or unskilled… it may be a reflection from others, but it needs to be redirected.  When it starts to play, make a conscious decision to stop it and substitute a new tape with affirmations of self-worth.

Physical health:

This last year my family went to Yellowstone National Park. Because of my physical health, I wasn’t able to keep up with my other family members when we went hiking and someone had to slow down to stay with me or I had to stay in camp while they went.  This made me feel disappointed in myself and embarrassed.  I want to be physically fit enough to be able to keep up with my family on hike during our camping trip scheduled for 2015.   To that end I will:


  • Exercise at least 3 days a week.

  • Take a hike once a month.

  • Consumer fewer refined carbs (sugar, refined grains) and increase my fruit and vegetable intake by at least one serving per day.

  • Eat fewer meals out.  Limit to two per week with a goal of fewer.

  • If it seems like I need help to reach this goal, I will seek it out in some form of a trainer or coach.

To keep myself accountable, I will find a way to track what I am doing each day.  I’m still looking for the right solution for this but I hope to have it done by the end of this week.

hlmauera: (knitting)
I think I have decided to call this a selfish knitting year in which I knit only those things that make me happy. Well actually the knitting process in general makes me happy so I'd like to also work mainly on things that are for me.

I have a number of items that are in progress that haven't been finished:
Freya, my Krista Tee, and my Sweetheart hat have long languished an I would like to finish them. There is also a first lace project that I should finish but am not very drawn to at the moment. The fact that this project holds no appeal to me may indicate a need to frog it and use the yarn for something more appealing; on the other hand it is a simple pattern and I should be able to finish it quickly and it has a knitted on border technique that I've never tried before.

I have three knitted Christmas projects that need to be finished before Christmas is too far behind me and a crochet blanket that I should work on at least a little at a time. (Granny squares can be so tedious when so many are needed!)

Ice Queen is in my queue, as is Fiori di sole. Interestingly both patterns are written by the same person. I have a pink silk alpaca blend for the Fiori but I'm not sure yet about the Ice Queen. I had thought it might be a good use of my quivet but I think that it will not use up every last bit of it as I'd like. I've contemplated Jaali for this yarn or maybe Pea Vines. There are many options but it's hard to decide.

Volna is on my list of things to do and I have three different colors of yarn from which to choose. Pretty as a peacock still appeals to me and I have peacock colored yarn so this is also an option.

I'd also like to challenge myself to do something like one of M Mario's patterns like Snowflake peacock.

I must admit that lace holds the highest appeal to me but the least usability. I'd like to knit more socks for myself and have got wool yarn to make another pair of pre-literate stockings as well as oodles and oodles of sock yarn. If I could conquer my fear of sweaters perhaps I would like to work them or several of the dainty little shrugs that I like to wear over my camis because sweaters are too warm for me in most circumstances.

There are a couple of baby sweaters on the horizon, I hope but again with the fear, even of itty bitty ones.

I need to sew up an organizer for the new wood crochet hooks that my mom and dad bought me for Christmas so that I can get them safely stashed and not littering my counter space.

I have many skirt patterns that I want to get made up but I hesitate because if my weight is going down they won't fit in due time.

I need to get my house cleaned so that I can feel comfortable doing any of the above. A dirty house makes me fretful and clutter makes my restless.

So how do I organize this into goals?

Well by the end of January I want to be done with my Christmas knitting. That's one goal. Sooner would be better. I'd hoped to work on that on my time off but it will depend on what the contractor finds when he comes tomorrow to examine the swampland that my house has become.

The house cleaning I'm working on a little at a time. My bedroom is pretty good now but I should clear off my dresser. I'm chipping away at the livingroom which is subject to project explosions on a regular basis. I need to get the kitchen table cleared off so that I doesn't look like a post office explosion. Dishes are also in a lamentable state but that's the work of a few minutes to fix. A little here and a little there will soon bring things into order, I hope.

Here is where a timeline fails me. I want to finish Freya, Volna, and Fiori di sole this year. Ice queen could make for a more comfortable existance in the winter but I'm not sure of the chances of finishing it up for this winter. I'd also like to finish six pairs of socks, two pairs of which I already have started one with one completed sock and another with a nearly completed sock.

I think that's pretty ambitious for a year but I'll hope that I can surprise myself with my industry and get to some other projects as well.
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My boss' wife is a financial adviser. She came by for a visit on Monday and we got to talking about Allan's imminent, potential retirement. It has been determined by Suzanne and Allan that I must have a new job before Allan can leave. I like the idea although I'm comfortable here and it won't be comfortable to move to the unknown. But I don't know what I want that job to be...AT ALL.

So she said for me to take a tablet and start writing down what I want to have, what I want to do and what I want to be. She said it might surprise me the ideas I get from that exercise and in the end it might open up some new possibilities. She also asked me to think about what I would want to do if I only had 5 years to live and if I only had 1 year to live. Automatically, that didn't include work for me. So she said to think about what I'd have to do to be in a place where I could do that if, heaven forfend, I should find myself in that situation. LJ is a little easier than a tablet so I'm going to work on this here. I've already found some interesting things. So in no particular order...

To Have:
Security, in some measure
Animals
A small subsistence farm- i.e. meat and food providing animals, large garden, pets, land
Time for family, friends, hobbies, and spiritual needs
Love
A home
Yarn
Fabric
Money enough for necessary repairs and maintenance of vehicles and property.
Ability to travel occasionally
Family and friends near me
Children, although they don't have to be mine

To Do:
Give back
Adopt or foster children
Travel
Love
Raise animals
Raise a garden
Lots of crafts (knitting, sewing, embroidery, soap making, scrapbooking....)
Organize
Help others
Teach (Not necessarily formal education)
Grow
Learn
Create processes
Create efficiencies
Create a better world, even if it's only for a few people
Teach others the joy of traditional hobbies and pastimes (Maybe even values)
Encourage courtesy, kindness and thoughtfulness in others

To Be:
Good at whatever I choose to do for employment
Spiritually strong which would include JLQ's
Loved (but not necessarily by everyone- that's just not possible and I know it)
Strong
Proficient
Organized
Helpful


I'm going to keep working on this list but what I am really enthusiastic about right now is being a headmistress at a school for girls, which emphasizes traditional values and hobbies while teaching the value of hard work and courtesy. I'd like it to be on a farm where the girls will share the farm chores. I would like it to be available to foster girls as well as other, perhaps more wealthy (since that pays the bills), girls. It seems impossible right now and maybe it won't be possible but it's a goal. I would be happy having such an environment for a long term foster home as well. Maybe I could adopt children into that environment also.

I guess the first step will be paying off some bills so I could maybe afford property that would support such an endeavor- maybe find a higher paying job (ok what would that be? Wait! Weren't we just here?). Anyone else have ideas?

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