It was a shitty week...onward to a better one.

In addition to the horrible happenings on Thursday, on Tuesday they found the body of my niece's good friend who had been missing from Boise for a month.  She was 18.  It's labeled suspicious and we all believe she was murdered.  The family is reeling from all sides right now.  I dislike how much anger I have when I'm grieving- so often it's misplaced and targets the wrong person.

So today, I'm hoping for a better week.  It's starting with Halloween which used to be my favorite holiday.  I love playing dress up but I haven't had time or desire to work on a costume for the last few years.  Work isn't a place that has many people dress up (I'm often the only one, if I do) so the elaborate costumes are quite out of place.  I haven't got anywhere to go for halloween so no place to show off a costume.  I don't give out candy because I can't really have it in the house so I don't even get to enjoy the trick or treaters and I don't get home from work until they are almost done anyway. (when did trick or treating start at 3:00 in the afternoon and end before 6:00?)  But this morning I rifled through my garb/costume closet and found something pretty to wear.  Then for the first time ever for work, I think, I put on make up and left my hair down. It's all driving me quite crazy which is why I don't do it more often.  Funnily enough, no one has even noticed. Frankly, I look at this picture and I feel like I look old and very sad.


Still, I made an effort and I'm hoping the week will reflect some of that back to me.