For some reason, today, it's hard....

I just read this wonderful tribute to a new baby: http://www.yarnharlot.ca/2015/07/dear-frankie/
It's sweet and wonderful and so very true but it just made my heart ache for that experience that I will never have.
Most of the time, I manage to ignore this particular hole in my life and I'm content to be the master of my own destiny.  But sometimes, like today, that hole just seems gigantic and gaping and I sit and cry over what will never be.
P.S.  My new niece is due in less than 30 days and I won't get to see her for a while. I'm sure that isn't helping.